This Is What It Is Like.

Boy oh boy did I have one hell of a hypo today.

Now for those of you who don’t know what a hypo is, check it out here:

Today wasn’t an unusual day in terms of what I did. Today was like any normal day. Same insulin, no real change in the amount I was eating, I didn’t exercise today – Thursday’s are one of my days off, work wasn’t particularly stressful and I was feeling good.

Then all of a sudden at around 3pm…bam.

I knew I was in trouble.

Not a little bit of trouble. I could barely walk in a straight line trouble.

Now I’ve not had many really bad hypos over the last 4 and a bit years. Most are easily manageable. But this one, like I imagine every diabetic will have a similar story, was a biggy.

Now I might be putting a slightly light-hearted tone on the matter so let me change that.

As diabetics we all work incredibly hard to stop stuff like this happening. If you’re reading this as a none diabetic, you’ll never know what it’s like to experience this. You can’t. It won’t happen. I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy.

I get asked the question a lot “is it like a bad hangover?” I’d take the worst hangover you can throw at me every day of the week compared to what happened this afternoon. A hangover is a walk in the park.

As I write, I’m completely fine. I dealt with it. It lasted half an hour. I was completely and utterly exhausted afterwards but I wanted to produce this post as a bit of awareness.

Whilst I was sat there, I wrote this. This is a completely honest ‘this is what I was feeling at the exact time’ message I wrote on my blog’s Facebook wall. This wasn’t a pity post. This wasn’t please check on me and make sure I’m ok post (although those of you who did thank you very much you little stars!). It’s a post to make people aware of what we as diabetics have to go through and work so hard to avoid. Because it really really is awful.

Yes it may only be diabetes. That doesn’t make it any easier. That doesn’t make that feeling and that event any easier. Yes there are worse things to go through. But as a Type 1 Diabetic a lot of people who aren’t aware of the condition don’t know….is that I’ve done nothing to deserve this. My body has just attacked me. And as I was sat there….it’s just not fair.

Copied and pasted from my Facebook wall:

So this is what it’s really like.
A hypo.
A really bad one.
I’m currently sat on the fire escape steps of the building I work in.
And I wanted to give the people who have never experienced one an insight into what it’s really like to experience really low blood sugar, at least for me.
It’s really awful.
I’m sweating profusely. Shaking uncontrollably. I can’t focus. Just writing the words on here is taking all my effort. I feel sick. Weak. Empty. Hungry. Scared. This is horrible. I mean it. Horrible. I’m a27 years old man and I can admit that I’m scared because I’m out of control of my own body for the next 15 or so minutes and I’ve just got to deal with it.
Diabetes may get a lot of stick in the media. It may be completely understood by the majority of people out there.
That doesn’t make it any easier.
I know I’ve done everything I should have done. But sometimes, even that isn’t enough.
This isn’t a cry for help. This isn’t attention seeking feel sorry for me.
This is just the truth.
I know this will only last for 20-30 minutes maximum.
I know this is rare.
I know I’ll be ok soon. Probably by the time this is posted. Despite the fact I’ll have to feel hungover like I’ve been on a 12 hour drinking session the night before and woken up in the middle of the Sahara for the rest of the day.
But that doesn’t make it any easier right now.
Low blood sugar can kill. I know it won’t on this occasion. And despite the front I put on sometimes, diabetes is really fucking hard to live with sometimes.

Sometimes, it just sucks.


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Dan has been a Type 1 Diabetic since November 2011 and writes about his experiences living with two autoimmune conditions (Type 1 Diabetes and Ulcerative Colitis), nutrition, exercise and living an overall healthier life on his blog and via his social media platforms.

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